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Recognizing the Now
by Mary Rocamora, M.A.
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It is often difficult to see what Now is about
unless something dramatic catches our attention. This is an
open invitation for the voice of Ego to speak up and make
itself useful once again by deciding for us what we should
or shouldn't be doing right now. Let's look at some ways to
improve and stabilize our free Awareness.
The first step is to fully relax into a state
of presence, and take in all you see, hear, smell, touch and
feel. This allows us to fully inhabit an otherwise ordinary
moment, which begins to make it feel expansive. The spider
web at the kitchen window looks magical. There is an explicable
feeling of concern for a grocery clerk. We hear a subtle tone
of voice in a phone conversation that alerts us that the caller
is annoyed.
Next, notice whether your awareness feels fluid,
moving with ease. Be mindful lest the always-trying-to- be-helpful
Ego tries to slip in a command that you leave the flow and
do its bidding. It screeches, "It's been three - days and
you haven't called Marilyn back!" while Now is about watching
a family of quails descend on the bird feeder. Ego thinks
it can slip this past Awareness, because at our house, quails
are referred to as Dan and Marilyn.
A heart check is always in order. Are our hearts
open? Is it leading us through the day? With an open heart,
we experience everything with wonder and appreciation, valuing
all the experiences we are passing through because they all
feel fresh and new even when they are painful or challenging.
Now, to the more elusive part. What to do right
now? Ego, of course, wants to cram our day full of "productive
activities," multi-tasking for extra points. But let's
relax and wait until we feel moved from within. What catches
our attention and moves us toward engaging it? Is there a
feeling of interest in engaging the activity? If cleaning
out a desk drawer attracted immediate attention, notice how
there is a natural movement afterward to write that article
that is due on Tuesday, the opposite of Ego's priorities.
And notice the feeling of being congruent with what's going
on in the flow. Opening the drawer and finding what we need
right away is a small pleasure, and the article practically
wrote itself.
Finally, let's try to recognize those moments
when Awareness wants to simply be at rest. A sense of oneness
with everything leaves us with an incredible sense of well-being,
and a sense of wonder at what it is to be alive.
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